Falling Together
Blogging used to be so regular, I need to work on that.
Have you ever had one of those moments when you feel like everything is falling apart? Like it seems that nothing you do ever works or stays together. To say that I’ve felt that way for a while would be the understatement of the century. It seemed as though I were stuck in a neverending rut, spinning my wheels endlessly and failing to actually go anywhere. As a matter of fact, it felt like I was taking two steps back for every step forward. Advance felt tedious and useless, everything just seemed dull.
By the world’s standards, I could justify the notion that I had a right to feel that way. After all, I’m a college grad (with honors) that has nothing to show for it except a piece of paper and numerous student loans to repay with both money and service to the state. Working at a cafe isn’t exactly the ideal job for a post-grad and it seemed like everyone in my graduating class was lining up a job or was immediately starting grad school. My situation at a glance? Doomed to limbo.
That’s when I needed to have both a divine intervention and a general mindset switch. The divine intervention started, ironically enough, with me and my roommates getting kicked out of our house in favor of tenants who could pay a higher rate of rent. I was furious at the way things were handled. And to make matters worse, every attempt at finding a new place fell through. Every. Attempt. But that’s when God stepped in. And isn’t that how it always happens? One of my potential roommates and his family agreed to host me until we could get some money saved up to move into a new place. Also, the day that I moved in, three jobs in my field opened up in Wilmington. To say that kind of situation is exceedingly rare would be pretty accurate.
Needless to say, I had plenty of inspiration and examples of how God was working in my life in order to fuel myself to lead worship at Lifepoint Church today. It was an incredible experience to see God’s provision at work and to be able to share my newfound joy with others. What was even better was the fact that everything God had been telling me, all the times he told me to be patient and wait for him to work, it all culminated today in a jubilant and exuberant way.
If I resembled a firework going off today during worship, now you know why. Just when I thought everything was falling apart, it was really falling together in the most glorious way.
